Time for a Change

The month of May marked the end of a 16-year teaching career. There were a lot of factors involved, but I will spare you all of the details.

At the end of January, a stress-induced digestive condition progressively increased to the point that I actually had to miss work and see some medical professionals. Working with those professionals did help me to figure out how to control the condition, which was never life-threatening to begin with.

But, I recognized that I probably needed a lifestyle change. I thought I knew what to do, but I wanted to pray and ask Heavenly Father if I was on the right track. I assumed that I would be asked to give up running my yearly marathon for the St. Jude’s Children’s Hospital and to cut back on exercising to the point where I was maintaining fitness but not pursuing any big goals.  I also figured I would get some direction on other hobbies and passions that I should let go out of my life.

The answer? “Quit your job.”

My husband and I looked at our finances, and discovered that quitting my job would leave us $20,000 to $25,000 under what we needed to maintain, at a minimal level, our home and debt repayments. (We’re both divorced from previous spouses, and that’s incredibly expensive!) I started fasting and taking the question to the temple.

The answer? “Quit your job.”

My husband was in a fender-bender and his car ended up being totalled. I was offered the position at work that I had been wanting for about three years. I fasted and took the question back to the temple.

The answer? “Quit your job.”

So, with thoughts of Joseph, Martin, and the 116 pages of manuscript, I wrote out and submitted a letter of resignation. I think I understand a little better what Lehi must have been feeling when he left everything but the basics behind in Jerusalem and hit the road for a promised land that he had to take on faith.

So, What Changes Are Coming Now?

I’ve been struggling with my personal view of my identity since I submitted my resignation. I’m in what is called my “midlife years,” and I’m once again trying to decide what I want to be when I “grow up”!

Fortunately, the Lord is in the details of our lives when we let him, and I’ve been following the spiritual impressions I have received. In the next few weeks, I intend to make an official announcement of the path that I will be following (at least for now).

As for this blog, it’s time to tighten things up. As I work toward my “big announcement,” I will be examining my purpose for writing this blog and solidifying its message. It will still pertain largely to my thoughts about living life as a Latter-day Saint and have the purpose of encouraging those who read, but I hope to improve the overall impression on site visitors and put a little more polish on my work.

So, I guess we can hold on to our hats together and see what the Lord has planned!