“Perseverance is demonstrated by those who… don’t give up even when others say, ‘It can’t be done.’” — James E Faust
Week six of my self-reliance class is in the books. As part of the class, I am sharing the self-reliance principle of the week. Anyone who personally knows me would believe that I have no problems with perseverance and hard work. I suppose that, compared to the general population, I am a hard worker who perseveres. I push myself harder than I’ve ever pushed anyone else in my life, and I have a reasonable list of people who don’t like me because they feel I am too strict, intolerant, or judgemental because I was overzealous in my encouragement.
But, I have learned that there is always room for improvement. Where I can tackle a life of putting in garden beds by hand, starting a business, etc., I struggle more with personal improvement.
I have these “dark voices” in my head that are very quick to play on my perfectionism and convince me that missing my goal means that I should give up. I will readily call myself a loser. I focus on where I still need to go rather than how far I’ve come. I set goals that very few humans could ever reach and then call it a loss if I don’t make it.
I’m telling you all of this to explain why I feel I need to work on this principle so badly. I persevere when the obstacle is on the outside, but I find it easy to give up when the obstacle is on the inside. Thankfully, as I mature in the gospel, I am learning to turn these things over to God when I finally admit that they are beyond me. I just need to stop trying to do so much on my own before I seek divine guidance.
(That was last week’s lesson, though.)